February 7

Insomnia

I can't sleep. All week. I wake at 3:30 or 4 AM and can't get back to sleep. After falling asleep at 11:30 or midnight. I'm manic. I'm exhausted. I have a lot of work to do and it's not getting done. Which is making everything worse and making it harder for me to sleep.

Fabulous presentation at Favorite Client today. Actually it was with Never-Met-In-Person-Only-Via-Conference-Call-Marketing-Manager at Favorite Client. She lives in the Bay Area and flew up for the presentation. They loved us. Or I should say, they loved Lisa. Her designs were fabulous. We rock.

A is depressed, he says because of his job situation. It is still weird--he's laid off, but not until April. They've closed two deals in the last week, but he still leaves at 3:30 PM everyday because there isn't enough for him to do. At home he's quiet, a little sulky. I think he's looking for work, but I'm not sure. I'm not going to worry about this today.

Polly is also manic. She's planning a major food and wine event for hundreds of people. Or 12. That's how many tickets she's sold. It's nice when you and your best friends are manic together. Sometimes. The other day she suggested I take melatonin for my insomnia and I told her I would because it's not good for people who have panic attacks. She was annoyed that I contradicted her medical advice. It was almost amusing.

And this concludes tonight's sleep-deprived entry.

- february 7